So aside from not blogging in months, I’ve still got that wretched 15+ extra pounds that I gained last winter that I just can’t shake. I’ll blog more on that soon – I’m seeing a Naturopath in an attempt to find new ways to lose the weight.
My biggest problem right now is a combination of handling stress poorly, and a lack of motivation. Bruce’s illness is contributing to the stress – while I’m confident in the medical treatment he’s getting, I’m not sleeping well at all. He maintains I was sleeping poorly before we found out he was sick; maybe he’s right. Doesn’t matter, I still can’t sleep. That leaves me with next to no energy to get in my workouts!
Add to that a lack of desire to run or ride, and no race to train for, and doing my workouts is just not a priority. It’s funny too – because when I actually manage to lace up my shoes and run, the runs go well and I always feel so good after. As for swimming, as much as I hate getting up at 5:15 to get to the pool, my swims are going great most days.
By the time I get home from work, if I swam in the morning, I have zero energy left to bike or run; even if I don’t swim it takes every ounce of willpower I have to bike or run! So how do I combat that? I have a prescription for sleeping pills, but I’m trying very hard to take no more than 1-2 per week. They are addicting, and I don’t want to rely on them. You’d think, considering how tired I am, I’d be sleeping better, but nope. Maybe the Naturopath will help with that too.
So I’m looking for my motivation – if you see it, could you send it back my way??